Wednesday, March 7, 2012


Today I am five days ( hopefully) away from meeting my second child, the one I didn't think would ever be. We think we are ready- bags are packed, car seats are ready, a plan is in place for Riley....and the dog (although I almost forgot him!) The house is clean and waiting for grandparents, in laws, and guests....oh, and a new member of the family.  Riley is ready, can't wait to meet her new baby brother, Chuck is ready (or appears to be, by the amount of nesting that man is doing-painting, steam cleaning carpets!)  Me, on the other hand?   I am swollen, tired, cranky, anxious and very impatient.....and then I feel nothing but guilt.  Guilt that I feel any of those things, guilt that a year ago, recovering from  my D & C, I would have wanted to kick anyone that complained about being pregnant.  It took 20 weeks for me to finally relax and realize that this could truly happen....and now I am so tired of it and just ready to meet him-I feel like I can't enjoy these last few days.  Pregnancy after IF and RPL is just so complicated. These feet may have something to do with it.....

Friday, February 24, 2012

38 Weeks.....yes, I know I missed a few!

How Far Along: 38 weeks
Size of baby: The size of a shrimp (love those food comparisons)
Gender: A Boy:  John Charles Koski;We'll be calling him Jack
Maternity Clothes: Oh yeah! :) and even those are uncomfortable....I need a mumu.
Weight gain: 43 pounds!!!  YIKES!  The Dr. is not worried and has blamed a lot of it on the medications I am taking.  I honestly don't care-as long as we're both healthy!
Movement: all.the. time.  I love every little nudge.
Sleep: Nope.  tired by 8:30, then wide awake at some point for several hours.  I need a forklift to get out of our bed. really.
Symptoms: Heartburn, cramping, lots of braxton hicks
Cravings: carbs
Best moment this week: I took Riley to my ultrasound because she wanted to know if Jack had hair....and sure enough, he's got a head full of hair!  She insisted on taking the pictures for show and tell the next day-I love that girl!